Story of the Book

First of all, I wrote this book for “my son BARAN”. I wrote to Baran to tell about my experiences, what happened to me and to convey my teachings, experiences and observations about life. Because I partially caused my son to live in a home without me, I feel indescribable pain towards him. That’s why I always feel embarrassed and responsible to him. One of the biggest reasons why my son lives in a fatherless house; I believe that’s what I experienced in the book. What I went through disrupted my life rhythm, took my energy, decreased my motivation, and all of these became salt and pepper for our separation with my wife. Another reason was that I had to empty out what had accumulated inside me. Otherwise, what I have accumulated, what I have thrown into me, my gases would have gnawed at me. I had to empty, relax, discharge, I had to remove what was inside me.

In a way, this book is actually the expression of the biggest volcano “justice” feeling inside me. If I knew that I was going to die, I would never abandon my sense of justice. Even to death, I want to go honorable and brave. The most important concept I learned from my father in life is bravery. The lava accumulated in the volcano should have come out. Otherwise, the volcano’s lava would shatter the volcano if it did not come out. In my life, I could never endure, the subject I could not accept is “injustice”. Unfortunately, this body and soul does not accept injustice at all. It is not possible for this body-spirit to bear the injustices done to me as an “honest, frank and just man” to the degree of a jerk. I wrote down what happened to me during this process, what I experienced with those who were directly or indirectly involved in this process.